# Its been a long long time since i look into the mirror
I guessed that i was blind but my reflection's getting clearer............#

dunno y this lyric keep rushing to my mind....Once again i feel wanna a shoulder for me to rest....to rely on...........a broad shoulder...which i love the most

FAMILY

i have a big family.My grandma has 7 sons n 2 daughters.

So,yesterday was my grandpa's b'day.As usual,we went for dinner together.My uncles from kl came back to celebrate for him.But,there is something i couldn't understand for YEARs n YEARS!!!

~WHY do they keep on souring each other?
~WHY do they love to add on oil while the fire is going to extinguish?(i man emotion)
~WHY do they cant help each other?
~WHY do they cant love each other?HEY! U guys are siblings man!
~WHY do they(who r rich) r so stingy,so selfish?
~WHY are my grandparents so unfair?
-->They treated their grandchildren(at KL) so well,but us?
-->2 words: Money-eye
As what i could see,my parents treat them so well,but y they still can talk bad bout my parents in front of others?

BOTHERS,SISTERS. We were born from a same mother,same father.I really cant understand y they could treat themselves like this.

#Case 1
I stepped into the restaurant yesterday.I,my sis n bro was ordered by our aunt to sit at table 1 while our parents sit at table 2.What u could think in this?I saw everyone sitting with their family but y cant us?I asked my dad,he said:ask your aunt,dun ask me.At the car i asked again,y?He said:As a children,dun keep asking y.I know your character that u wanna noe y,y,y.But if im your aunt,i wont tell a word but a tight slap for being asking why.

#Case 2
I took out my camera n took picture of my family.OKAY.I planned it to keep it for ONLY MYSELF.But wat my 6th uncle said?
uncle:this year the task of taking pictures i'll pass it to u.
me:for wat?
uncle:for u are taking a camera n took it here n there.So this year u take it.I've retired.
me:need to wash out the pics?
my cousin sis n her husband:of coz la.Who ask u to take pictures here and there?People who are clever will only sit here n eat.
her husband:Study so much for wat?Like that aso dunno.no use one.No need study la
me:So u mean that u r so useful n im useless for studying lo?
her husband:yala.Study so much for wat?No use de.
me:Uncle,your camera's quality is better than me for wat u dun use yours?Im juz taking pictures that i like but not for u all.For wat i need to wash it??
*i dunno wat he said n he juz took his camera n walked off*
me:bustard bull shit.*slow voice n shoo off frm thr to my mummy side*

*our turn to take pictures with my grandparents*
after taking...
my cousin sis:hey,y juz now u din ask me to take your camera n i'll help u to take pictures wat...
me:wth.. (n walked off)


WHAT FAMILY IS THIS??!!!!!

#Case 3
GUYS,did u seen before that children who beat their mum,and their mum kissed her son's lips in public?did u seen before a dad,scolded their son *F__K U?? did u seen before a dad,pointed o0o to his son??
yep.thats true.This family is IN my FAMILY.Should praise them,n give them an award for teaching their children in this STYLE.



SEE???this is MY FAMILY.Can i have a happiness family like others?BETTER DUN THINK TOO MUCH.I cant say that i hate them,caz they are my family.But...luckily...some of them are great too.Much more better that those :)

FORGIVING

i've thought a lot about my past..n wat im thinking is-->Should i forgive her,or shouldn't?

I felt stupid u know...I BELIEVED A GIRL WHO WAS BETRAYING ME ALL THE TIME!I treated her as my friend,i even told my friend that :"Its okay to let her know.She is believable.I believe her."What the earth is going now?! She even used to call me a nickname(u cant even imagine wat she called,U CANT!) People says that she's pretty.Okay..lets said as i cant imagine a wicked woman is 'PRETTY'.Thats why i cant accept my friend gave me comments n say that SHE'S PRETTY! YES,i need to admit it that YES SHE IS MORE PRETTY THAN ME N I COULDN'T TELL LIES WHICH IS NOT A LIE!But i still dun have the prepared heart to admit a pretty woman have such a wicked heart.

Okay,lets be face to face in this issue.As i could remember i NEVER TREAT HER BAD OR EVEN TELL ABOUT HER BAD THINGS BEHIND OF HER *when i stil treat her as my friend* how could she...how could she be so cruel...SHE IS A SWEETHEART?OH GOSH...if this kinda people can be sweetheart...im totally SPEECHLESS! I wonder do guys put on eyes to look at people or they saw determine someone with their 'saw-eye'?

I dun wan to tell wat she did to me here..PRIVACY FOR HER..c..im stil respecting her..that one who NOT WORTH FOR PEOPLE TO RESPECT HER! One conclution i've made:Dun ever believe someone that u just get to know...a PUPPY look might have a LION back faces.

YES?NO?P n P nitezz =)

Im wondering all day long whether my decision to support my bro to shalom is correct or not..YES?NO?

What i can say is only "Let HIM to decide ba.. I know HE will give he best for my bro"
I've no idea how to help my bro.What he study now is totally different from what i studied.The only way is i read his books n teach,explain to him in his way.Kinda stress when i tot this..But what can i do?He's my bro.My only bro.I dun wan to c him not educated.I cant be so selfish.

P&P nitezz now ^^
Do u know the kind of feeling when u dunno who wil b your partner later?YES.Im in that kinda condition tat time.My friend told me"I think so many shalom guys will go..N shalom gt many indians oo!"
Oh gosh...my heart pump even faster...
Till that day,i keep asking....who is my partner...who is my partner....erghhhh!!!Everyone keep asking me "yingying,who is your partner" n my answer will be only "I still dunno :( "
I waited for quite a long time...Then i heard someone called out "yingying,yingying"..I thought is khoo yin ying so i din answer...Then they called out "Low Yingying"..Walao...quite shock de lo...

I go out...n i saw like no one thr la...Will they called out the wrong name?Suddenly they say yeewee is my partner...I was like...speechless..huh..Luckily la..caz i know him...
He leaded me to the dining table...We sat thr,n he was not talking.Neither me too.I became anxious like..wat im gonna do..wat im gonna do...caz justin n john aso talking wif their partner especially justin.=='''n we juz sit thr...(but after some time we got start talking la..)

N he told me that the flower he gave me is he do by himself.I was like..so touch!caz at first i thought.."whr he bought this flower arr......"

After dinner...some of my friend come n tell me.."yingying!!!your partner so handsome la!!!u so lucky..."i dunno wat to answer back...so i juz simply say "hahaha...yaya~he looks smart today =) " they also say something tat makes me feel more weird...== "yingying!!!he so romantic la!!!ply guitar wor...for u le!!!wow...so many girls envy u!!!we exchange partner wan ont?" n wat i thought tat time is "hello?he plyed guitar but not for me ok...is for his 'partner'...n in an arrangement of fate he partner with me.."but i din say la...i juz answer "haha..nola...soso lo...hehehe"anyway,I HAD A GREAT GREAT NITE on that day...N seriously,i had a great partner.I appriciate it =) :)