So excited to count down the days to leave this school, so depressed to countdown the days im facing SPM :( It s already left not more than one months. Oh my did i finish all my revisions and preparation? Preparation cant be finish and all i can do is continue to revise, do and revise. Im glad that my family put hopes on me, but unfortunately this is also a source of giving myself pressure. But as long as i did my best, there wont be tears of "if i would only..." but tears of joy, i guess.
Im ranked in top 35 in school, but the school authorities cruelly skipped my name, for twice. I felt disappointed to myself, not because of the badge that i lose but i felt that im despised by the school. I got a moderately good result to fit in myself into the rank but was being pulled down because of a C+. They eventually skipped my name, like throwing me into a world that i dont belong to them. I just need a confirmation. Which is definitely not being humble. I hate myself for being like this, hate myself for being so proud.
I thank my physics teacher for giving me so many exercises, thank you. I thank them for being so responsible as a teacher, as my friend. I thank her in not giving me warning letter although i skipped schooling for so many days. I thank her for being so tolerance to me :)
For the coming SPM what i can say is GOOD LUCK and jiayou :) I know i can do it and you can do it too! Countdown-ing 24 days peeps :') A step forward to reach to my dreams. The day i stepped out from this school is the day when my journey starts, and there will only be farewell till i will be there for my results.
