Hari K.O.K.O

Its hari koko today.Everything goes FINE!And so as the weather!! :)
Thank God for answering my prayer.I really had a lot of fun today.Thanks to all my luvvie friends that support me and our club!Really appreciate it.Yea,its tired tho.But everyone had a lot of fun.Our friendships are getting stronger,n even more co-operate.Praise Lord for everything :)

Actually i was kinda too lazy n tired to go for yf today.But..maybe Lord's strength pull me there? ^^ Time passes so fast.Hari koko that we're waiting for had became a past tense.And now im trying to focus on my studies?Im trying to.

Sometimes i just thought of a question.Why do I need to put so much effort in studies?Its not even a part of my life that i want to do! Maybe its just an effort to achive my wish to help those in needs.But what can i do to help them?I still cant get the answer.Maybe...study its just a way to find the answer..If its for those commity,those struggles mean nothing :)

Where's my smile?

There's so many things happened around me and forced me to face those realities.People wont understand,they wont even care,and..I dun feel like telling.Even if i tell,they also wont understand.Their just like a children under a shield,no worries.I wonder how good if my life is just simple as that.Someone asked me:What's your dream?
Seriously i say,not i DUN WANT to have a dream,but i DUN DARE to have a dream.Sorry that my answer is just like this.Maybe im to afraid to hurt by the realities of the truth.Sorry if my joy are fake.Sorry if i dun feel like answering.

W.A.I.T ❤

Im waiting here..
Waiting★ For the days which can have fun
Waiting★ For the studies to over
Waiting★ For days without struggles
Waiting★ For a question, an answer or an action
Waiting★ To bury in storybooks and dvds
Waiting★ To recieve gifts from my Lord
Waiting★ For a chance
Waiting★ That those grey memories can be locked and thrown
Waiting★Waiting★Waiting.

Yeaa...But,i wish that time could just stop just for a moment,that i really don't want to face adults problem.Im facing some of it now,but at least im not as stress as adults.I can't take it for now,how can i face in future?I cant answer this question.

People says,that adult world are full of confussion,and problems.I treated my teenage world as a study time,or can be say as time to take responsiblity to study.

Somehow i felt that time flew so fast,but it seems like its ME who wasted it for doing nothing.Without realising,its been 7 months pasted in my 15th years.And..face it,im going to have my PMR soon(3 months).Dun feel like thinking bout it but,its a fact that i really need to face.But wat im thinking is time after PMR!How to have fun without taking exams? -depressed again-

After my bitter time(form2),i'd always tot that y time goin so slow..y i need to take so much time to forgive and put down.Its actually a question tat made me struggle for 1 year.After i've forgave and put down,i tot it day before yesterday,y i need to waste so much time to struggle in this type of silly things?
I need to congrats myself now.While i was thinking of someone that brought me out from these struggles("someone" din noe that he's the one who brought me out^^),the one that hurted me passed beside me.But amazingly,i din realise until my friend mocked me.Im smiling inside. :) Ying Ying,you've passed this examination.Congratulations :D

A problematic girl

I've never met things that i can't speak out,even my families,or my best friend.I was just asking "someone" to make me laugh.Indeed,im smilling in my heart to know that he's serious. :) Thanks dear. ^^
I can't put down my pride to face these problems.My situation's like im a sandwich,between two bread.Bread A told me x,bread B told me xy,both x+xy are like forming a linear equation for me,no numbers,i cant solve.
Im just a 15 years old secondary girl.Im not an adult.Maybe...im still not mature enough to help you in solving your problems.Maybe...Im not as matured minded as you think.Sorry to dissapoint you,mum.Sorry that i can't give you any help,dad.

I really need your help,Lord.