my love,i extinguished it myself.If not,seriously,i cant even put 100% in my education.Everytime stay bac,until i myself aso feel weird.Saw some nonsense at astaka,thought tat it was X.Hope tat it was X too.But,probably not.N,i dun feel like wan to noe now.How will it be if i knew?no points noeing...After latihan sukan,hehe...i wont stay bac dy...Caz im heading to my ambition!I WAN TO BE A CRIMINOLOGIST!!!
Seriously,today,i met X.I dun even noe wat im doing in tat moment.I've only had a conclution which is im toooo unmature enough.So now,i'll extinguish every lil drop of passion of L.O.V.E in my heart,till 18,i'll put some firewoods n burn it again.This is my vow to myself.PMR?no PROBLEM!!!Juz wait,here i'll get your hand,7A's!!!
♥ LOVE ♥
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
WAT A DAY!!!again.....==
FRIDAY!!!eventually,i hate this day.Caz...many things happened on friday.No matter its on past,or present.
School day...Altho not many homework...But after school,i started to be crazy bout dunno wat kinda bangang things.I thought something that i noe that i cant even think of it.But...This feeling is juz like cutting my heart.Juz imagine,take a knife n slice your heart again n again n again.Thats wat i did today.Cant exactly explain wat happened.But...HAIZZ
I tried not to think bout it but...but...but.....erghh.DAMN FOOLS!!
Its rainy day today.As so as my world.While i thought tat im sitting in front of this computer n reading an email,GOSH,tears rolling down...Thats y,sometimes i reali reali hate to open my inbox.ERGHHH
Later,sports practice.And as wat i imagine,Came true.But it'll be TRUE even i din imagine.Such a rubbish-_-I reali reali cant stop myself.Juz like wat my mum say,心太软，要更狠！
Here's a song i wanna share wif u guys.Enjoy=)
I alwaz needed time for my own
I'd never thought i
Need you there when i cry
And the days feel like years when im alone
And the bed where you lied
Is made up on your side
When you walked away,I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much i need you right now?
#When you're gone,The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone,the face i came to know is missing too
When you're gone,the words i need to hear
To alwaz get me through,the day
And make me okay
I miss you~#
I'd never felt this way before
Everything that i do
Reminds me of you
N the clothes you left,Are lyin' on the floor
And it smells juz like
I love the things that you do
When you walk away,I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much i need you rigth now?
#When you're gone,the pieces of my heartare missing you
When you're gone,the face i came to know is missing to
When you're gone,the words i need to hear
To alwaz get me through,the day
And make me okay
I miss you
We will make for each other
Im here forever
I know we are
YEAH~
All I ever wanted was for you to know
I can't hardly breathe i give my heart and soul
I can'y hardly breathe because i feel you're here with me~
YEAH!!
#When you're gone,the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone,the face i came to know is missing too
When you're gone,the words i need to hear
To alwaz get me through the day,And make me okay
I MISS YOU~~~~
=)
School day...Altho not many homework...But after school,i started to be crazy bout dunno wat kinda bangang things.I thought something that i noe that i cant even think of it.But...This feeling is juz like cutting my heart.Juz imagine,take a knife n slice your heart again n again n again.Thats wat i did today.Cant exactly explain wat happened.But...HAIZZ
I tried not to think bout it but...but...but.....erghh.DAMN FOOLS!!
Its rainy day today.As so as my world.While i thought tat im sitting in front of this computer n reading an email,GOSH,tears rolling down...Thats y,sometimes i reali reali hate to open my inbox.ERGHHH
Later,sports practice.And as wat i imagine,Came true.But it'll be TRUE even i din imagine.Such a rubbish-_-I reali reali cant stop myself.Juz like wat my mum say,心太软，要更狠！
Here's a song i wanna share wif u guys.Enjoy=)
I alwaz needed time for my own
I'd never thought i
Need you there when i cry
And the days feel like years when im alone
And the bed where you lied
Is made up on your side
When you walked away,I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much i need you right now?
#When you're gone,The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone,the face i came to know is missing too
When you're gone,the words i need to hear
To alwaz get me through,the day
And make me okay
I miss you~#
I'd never felt this way before
Everything that i do
Reminds me of you
N the clothes you left,Are lyin' on the floor
And it smells juz like
I love the things that you do
When you walk away,I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much i need you rigth now?
#When you're gone,the pieces of my heartare missing you
When you're gone,the face i came to know is missing to
When you're gone,the words i need to hear
To alwaz get me through,the day
And make me okay
I miss you
We will make for each other
Im here forever
I know we are
YEAH~
All I ever wanted was for you to know
I can't hardly breathe i give my heart and soul
I can'y hardly breathe because i feel you're here with me~
YEAH!!
#When you're gone,the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone,the face i came to know is missing too
When you're gone,the words i need to hear
To alwaz get me through the day,And make me okay
I MISS YOU~~~~
=)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Oppssss......awww...MAN!
latihan sukan week these days...homework berlambak plus my kind n beautiful "madam tey",my class teacher's arahan to do the class stuff...n dammit to the afternoon session who share class wif us,2RK2,better becareful!!!i stapler u koyak.>latihan sukan is getting me darker..seems?n its getting me so exhausted.n its getting me terrible!TERRIBLE!!TERRIBLE!!!
today,i ponteng my latihan sukan n went to div house to finish the polyfoam.(also mdm tey's arahan==)from 2pm,we do until 4.30pm.mampus letih gila...I want to sleep for a while.Who noes.........devil div pull me up from the sofa dun let me sleep,ask me to habiskan my homework -_-devil div=='''devil teacher-_-
noe wat i do when i had stress?
i thought bac bout my past....Drown into my past....Tat totally makes me warm.But dun think until too far la...haiz~Altho i've put down,but i noe,that i wont ever forget,n i wont ever lost tat kinda feelings toward 'X'.Yes,i admit it.That....i'd lie to myself.Mostly.I dun dare to face realities.I scare...that i'll be hurt like past again...Nowdays will think bout X...I aso dunno y?Sometimes when i wake up at 6,i felt that my pillow r wet,my teddies r tightly hugged.I tried to remember wat i dreamt,but mostly conclusion is:X plus nightmare in front of the computer.Sometimes,i woke up suddenly or i shouted n sat up.These happened after school reopens.Most of the nightmares r because of X.But..There r sweet times n there r soundly asleep till morning too.Thanks to HIM that protecting me all the times.Thanks to HIM that gave me a besties in my class.that can warm my heart whenever my heart feels cold.
JIAYOK yingying...no more tears n nightmares of X...=)
today,i ponteng my latihan sukan n went to div house to finish the polyfoam.(also mdm tey's arahan==)from 2pm,we do until 4.30pm.mampus letih gila...I want to sleep for a while.Who noes.........devil div pull me up from the sofa dun let me sleep,ask me to habiskan my homework -_-devil div=='''devil teacher-_-
noe wat i do when i had stress?
i thought bac bout my past....Drown into my past....Tat totally makes me warm.But dun think until too far la...haiz~Altho i've put down,but i noe,that i wont ever forget,n i wont ever lost tat kinda feelings toward 'X'.Yes,i admit it.That....i'd lie to myself.Mostly.I dun dare to face realities.I scare...that i'll be hurt like past again...Nowdays will think bout X...I aso dunno y?Sometimes when i wake up at 6,i felt that my pillow r wet,my teddies r tightly hugged.I tried to remember wat i dreamt,but mostly conclusion is:X plus nightmare in front of the computer.Sometimes,i woke up suddenly or i shouted n sat up.These happened after school reopens.Most of the nightmares r because of X.But..There r sweet times n there r soundly asleep till morning too.Thanks to HIM that protecting me all the times.Thanks to HIM that gave me a besties in my class.that can warm my heart whenever my heart feels cold.
JIAYOK yingying...no more tears n nightmares of X...=)
Monday, January 11, 2010
My 15th b'day=)
my 15th b'day...
not really good...i dun have any feelings like "this is my b'day,today is my b'day".My best friend,din even wish me,i thought i can have suprise in my 15th b'day,but...none.
my b'day was covered up wif homeworks,class decoration,thinking how n wat to do for the class...SERIOUSLY,im stress!!
thanks for those who wished me=)no matter thr's present or watever i dun care,but u guys warmed my heart=]
now wat happened today?once i got up in the morning,i was waiting for my family members to wish me.My mum wished,but my sis,urghh...she fought wif me early in the morning.Will she wish me?dun dream about it!My bro...i din even c him yet today...Miss him...my dad,he juz keep smiling wif my "zhao pai" smile!!(i taught him)HAHA!!!
So,daddy say he's gonna bring me to KFC later...c wat wil happen ba...=)
not really good...i dun have any feelings like "this is my b'day,today is my b'day".My best friend,din even wish me,i thought i can have suprise in my 15th b'day,but...none.
my b'day was covered up wif homeworks,class decoration,thinking how n wat to do for the class...SERIOUSLY,im stress!!
thanks for those who wished me=)no matter thr's present or watever i dun care,but u guys warmed my heart=]
now wat happened today?once i got up in the morning,i was waiting for my family members to wish me.My mum wished,but my sis,urghh...she fought wif me early in the morning.Will she wish me?dun dream about it!My bro...i din even c him yet today...Miss him...my dad,he juz keep smiling wif my "zhao pai" smile!!(i taught him)HAHA!!!
So,daddy say he's gonna bring me to KFC later...c wat wil happen ba...=)
Monday, January 4, 2010
2nd day in form 3 life~
Sorry...i'd promised to post pictures in esp camp but im juz too lazy...But wait ya!!!Sure i'll post it some other day=)
2nd day...
i thought tat everything will b nice,smooth,alright.But something goes wrong.Maybe is im not enough sleep on yesterday or wat...my moral class->no teacher. my science class(last period)->tat teacher...urghhhh!!!!
Lets not tell out her name here...She's so.......i dunno how to explain it,examine yourself
Once v(moral pupils)entered the class,actually i planned to ucap selamat wif her first b4 bac to my seat.Half way she spoke:"Eh,tak de mulut nak ucap selamat ke?korang ni budak moral kan?takkan la ni pun tak tau"
So,she chased us outside,n ordered us to say selamat sejahtera before v go in.Ok,i've done it.
Then,she asked bout ajk science,"who is the ajk science?"...No one answered.Actually its my job to answered caz im ketua keceriaan.Matapelajaran section is under me.N because of tat,she nagged everyone in the class.
Next,she asked "who got go for science tuition n advanced the lesson before i teach?(in bm)"Some of them put on their hands.Then she started."waa,pandai dah la ni?napa nak pergi tuition?skola tak ajar ke?"
We kept quiet.
she:buka buku teks muka surat 2 dan buka latihan muka surat 2.fahamkan apa di buku teks dan siapkan di buku latihan no.1-4
WAT THE....!!!
she din even teach us how to do or explain some,n she asked us to do it!Then she gave us homework.OMG....her voice is slower then the kitty in afternoon session.Im sitting in the front row,seriously,i cant hear wat she said.
From this we can c,not every teachers r responsible,not every teachers r caring our studies.So,y dont they change their development,that no schools r allowed?students juz need to study at home n have tuitions.What do teachers for?(i mean some teachers)
I started to miss my afternoon session.I miss cikgu tajul,i miss cikgu siti hawa.
I remember,they keep asking us"faham tak?faham tak?"
but this teacher,NO,NOT ONCE.
I told my friends,"i regreted that i used to say "merdeka" when cikgu tajul din come.Caz when im 1st3,his presence in our class is almost 100%.i regreted that i sat bhind when cikgu siti hawa teaching time.I regreted that i din pay 100% attention while cikgu siti hawa was teaching.I regreted that i was "fishing" while cikgu tajul on the slides for us.SERIOUSLY,I REGRETED."
So,be thankful,for those afternoon session one.You'll hard to find one good teacher that will cares u,adores u like now in morning session.Appriciate wat u got now.
Lastly,TEACHER WHO TAUGHT ME IN AFTERNOON SESSION,I'LL REMEMBER U ALL.THANK YOU,TEACHER.=)
2nd day...
i thought tat everything will b nice,smooth,alright.But something goes wrong.Maybe is im not enough sleep on yesterday or wat...my moral class->no teacher. my science class(last period)->tat teacher...urghhhh!!!!
Lets not tell out her name here...She's so.......i dunno how to explain it,examine yourself
Once v(moral pupils)entered the class,actually i planned to ucap selamat wif her first b4 bac to my seat.Half way she spoke:"Eh,tak de mulut nak ucap selamat ke?korang ni budak moral kan?takkan la ni pun tak tau"
So,she chased us outside,n ordered us to say selamat sejahtera before v go in.Ok,i've done it.
Then,she asked bout ajk science,"who is the ajk science?"...No one answered.Actually its my job to answered caz im ketua keceriaan.Matapelajaran section is under me.N because of tat,she nagged everyone in the class.
Next,she asked "who got go for science tuition n advanced the lesson before i teach?(in bm)"Some of them put on their hands.Then she started."waa,pandai dah la ni?napa nak pergi tuition?skola tak ajar ke?"
We kept quiet.
she:buka buku teks muka surat 2 dan buka latihan muka surat 2.fahamkan apa di buku teks dan siapkan di buku latihan no.1-4
WAT THE....!!!
she din even teach us how to do or explain some,n she asked us to do it!Then she gave us homework.OMG....her voice is slower then the kitty in afternoon session.Im sitting in the front row,seriously,i cant hear wat she said.
From this we can c,not every teachers r responsible,not every teachers r caring our studies.So,y dont they change their development,that no schools r allowed?students juz need to study at home n have tuitions.What do teachers for?(i mean some teachers)
I started to miss my afternoon session.I miss cikgu tajul,i miss cikgu siti hawa.
I remember,they keep asking us"faham tak?faham tak?"
but this teacher,NO,NOT ONCE.
I told my friends,"i regreted that i used to say "merdeka" when cikgu tajul din come.Caz when im 1st3,his presence in our class is almost 100%.i regreted that i sat bhind when cikgu siti hawa teaching time.I regreted that i din pay 100% attention while cikgu siti hawa was teaching.I regreted that i was "fishing" while cikgu tajul on the slides for us.SERIOUSLY,I REGRETED."
So,be thankful,for those afternoon session one.You'll hard to find one good teacher that will cares u,adores u like now in morning session.Appriciate wat u got now.
Lastly,TEACHER WHO TAUGHT ME IN AFTERNOON SESSION,I'LL REMEMBER U ALL.THANK YOU,TEACHER.=)
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