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Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Its bad to know the truth and truth is always ugly! But we need to live and find a way to survive in it. Sometimes i just dun understand why people dislike me..i asked for reasons,but all i got are lies..no one tell me the truth. Even my best friends,non of them are telling me the truth.Is that wrong in being myself? I just dun wan to be a girl who covered with mask,i dun want. Am i wrong? I tried to do so many things just to get some acceptance but its just...no one understands me.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
2011 School life.
I still can't really accept that i actually reached home around 4.30 everyday.I was sooo exhausted and yet i can't take a nap because of those homeworks.And i thank God that this week i dun have any addmath homeworks,or else i really need to stay up till 12am.Form 4 is certainly not an easy year.Especially we're having 13 periods in school and sports practice too.
I just got some complains from some students there.And what they said is..THEY DUN HAVE LUNCH BEFORE SPORTS PRACTICE! I don't know whether they will faint halfway running or not but the most important is,why we need to suffer like this? We are just an ordinary students without supernatural power. It's already cruel for me to have lunch at 2.30pm or 3pm so what word can i use to describe those who din even take their lunch? Think about it. Im not to complain anything here but just felt pity for us who have 40 minutes per period but ONLY 20 MINUTES for rest time.
Day before yesterday i followed my mum to fetch my younger sister back from school.And once she came out from Gate A,what i saw is a pale face finding for the car to send her back.You really can't imagine how pale her face was.I thought that maybe she wants to diet so she skipped her rehat.But what she explained to me was because the teacher was 10 minutes late and when she reached canteen,everyone was heading back to their classes.She don't even have time to buy food and eat! School ended at 3pm that day,and she had her breakfast+lunch around 3.30pm.I really felt pity for her.And my mum was so frustrated and keep repeating how can the school treat students this way?Students come to school to study but not suffer in gastric pain everyday! I dun know how muslims can fast from morning to 6pm but..we are not muslims,we don't fast.
I really,really hope that our school can be fairer to us.I don't know how long I can stand to have lunch in this late time everyday.I don't want to end up in hospital.
I just got some complains from some students there.And what they said is..THEY DUN HAVE LUNCH BEFORE SPORTS PRACTICE! I don't know whether they will faint halfway running or not but the most important is,why we need to suffer like this? We are just an ordinary students without supernatural power. It's already cruel for me to have lunch at 2.30pm or 3pm so what word can i use to describe those who din even take their lunch? Think about it. Im not to complain anything here but just felt pity for us who have 40 minutes per period but ONLY 20 MINUTES for rest time.
Day before yesterday i followed my mum to fetch my younger sister back from school.And once she came out from Gate A,what i saw is a pale face finding for the car to send her back.You really can't imagine how pale her face was.I thought that maybe she wants to diet so she skipped her rehat.But what she explained to me was because the teacher was 10 minutes late and when she reached canteen,everyone was heading back to their classes.She don't even have time to buy food and eat! School ended at 3pm that day,and she had her breakfast+lunch around 3.30pm.I really felt pity for her.And my mum was so frustrated and keep repeating how can the school treat students this way?Students come to school to study but not suffer in gastric pain everyday! I dun know how muslims can fast from morning to 6pm but..we are not muslims,we don't fast.
I really,really hope that our school can be fairer to us.I don't know how long I can stand to have lunch in this late time everyday.I don't want to end up in hospital.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
LOL..Im already...16?
im already form4 and its my bday today! Yesterday i meant,haha..its already 12pm. Im already 16!
Will 16 better than 15? i duno..bt this year will definitely be a tough year for me :( sometimes im really afraid that i cant catch up,i cant memorize all the thingies that i need to remember.I know this year will be a tough and stress year for me that i need to face many things that normal students dun need to worry about.Maybe some people are drowning in love but..i dun have that America time ok..my time is almost pack.Almost everyday when i reached home,i reli reli love the smell of my bed eventhough i din on my fan,i can just sleep for few hours.But i know that i cant because i will headache after i wake up. :( Thats a torture for me! Im so tired yet i cant sleep.
ok,talk back to school.I kinda fought withone of my friend in these days.My mouth said that im angry at him but..im just angrying at myself who cant take the truth.He's right.Maybe thats called..im hiding from the truth? Hate myself being like this..But what I have is a gift for my God.I cant complain bout it but accept it.I've no choice to say anything as i dun have that right! I just cant chg anything but u just dun and wont understand! you din even try to understand me! sometimes i felt like im being so selfish..that i want people to accept what i say is right but somehow people just cant accept it.I shud reli look at myself again..Start to feel bored in my school life.Those people faces,insultions,the way they talk make me feel so upset and disappointed.They seemed like building their joy on people's pain,and yet they can laugh happily and make nothing! Felt tired of these school days..I feel like ending it up as soon as possible.
Will 16 better than 15? i duno..bt this year will definitely be a tough year for me :( sometimes im really afraid that i cant catch up,i cant memorize all the thingies that i need to remember.I know this year will be a tough and stress year for me that i need to face many things that normal students dun need to worry about.Maybe some people are drowning in love but..i dun have that America time ok..my time is almost pack.Almost everyday when i reached home,i reli reli love the smell of my bed eventhough i din on my fan,i can just sleep for few hours.But i know that i cant because i will headache after i wake up. :( Thats a torture for me! Im so tired yet i cant sleep.
ok,talk back to school.I kinda fought withone of my friend in these days.My mouth said that im angry at him but..im just angrying at myself who cant take the truth.He's right.Maybe thats called..im hiding from the truth? Hate myself being like this..But what I have is a gift for my God.I cant complain bout it but accept it.I've no choice to say anything as i dun have that right! I just cant chg anything but u just dun and wont understand! you din even try to understand me! sometimes i felt like im being so selfish..that i want people to accept what i say is right but somehow people just cant accept it.I shud reli look at myself again..Start to feel bored in my school life.Those people faces,insultions,the way they talk make me feel so upset and disappointed.They seemed like building their joy on people's pain,and yet they can laugh happily and make nothing! Felt tired of these school days..I feel like ending it up as soon as possible.
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