Fifteen

Fifteen.YA,im fifteen.Eventually,people says that in 15,there will be a great life full of love and friendship.Even people who are mature couldn't reject in L.O.V.E.But for me,it already past almost a year.I still can remember what i did last year.People used to say im stupid,im silly,im dumb but what i did?I'd juz ignored.When you are in love,your emotion will change altho its because of small lil things that made my him/her.As so as me.Haih,,i dunno when n who will gonna take the 1st step.Xkan la for this whole entire life we wont talk to each other again?

Actually i thought before,to take this 1st step.But dunno y,i too scare to face the realities-->
#What will it be if i talked to him?
#Will he answer?
#Will he spread out to others?
#What will be the worst thing?
#Did he reali cheated me?
#Can i know all the question that i wanted to know all this days?
#What will be the answer?
#Will it hurt me again?
#What will i do if i got hurted once again?
#What the exact answer i want to know?
#Will it be dead fish?
#Can i face everything im cool n calm state?
#Another love?
#Will i consider my education if i got love once again?
#Will it last long?
#Will it be like past?
#Can i handle it better that past?
#Friends again?
#What will his answer?
#Will people feel im cheap?
#How if his answer is NO?
#How should i face him if his answer is YES?
#Can i face him as a normal friend?

GUYS U SEE!U SEE!
So many..questions....n these is just what i consider!
But,y should i think these if i juz wanna make ONE decision?
ONLY ONE DECISION
YES or NO
I dun need it actually.Juz pay attention to my studies.As i can feel,one day,we'll have chance to talk again.If no means,i'll know,that what happened last year its juz lies.LOVE,PROMISES,LIES
All are fake.FAKE.FAKE.If my love was repaid with a heart full of lies,i can totally admit tat im a DUMB.

TRUE LOVE.I dunno what it is.As i know now,I love my families,i love my frens.All unhealthy relationship,i WONT EVEN THINK.Because i know,i shouldn't do things that will hurt me.
#How if i love someone?
-->I wont love someone if i dun wan to.=))