LOL..Im already...16?

im already form4 and its my bday today! Yesterday i meant,haha..its already 12pm. Im already 16!
Will 16 better than 15? i duno..bt this year will definitely be a tough year for me :( sometimes im really afraid that i cant catch up,i cant memorize all the thingies that i need to remember.I know this year will be a tough and stress year for me that i need to face many things that normal students dun need to worry about.Maybe some people are drowning in love but..i dun have that America time ok..my time is almost pack.Almost everyday when i reached home,i reli reli love the smell of my bed eventhough i din on my fan,i can just sleep for few hours.But i know that i cant because i will headache after i wake up. :( Thats a torture for me! Im so tired yet i cant sleep.
ok,talk back to school.I kinda fought withone of my friend in these days.My mouth said that im angry at him but..im just angrying at myself who cant take the truth.He's right.Maybe thats called..im hiding from the truth? Hate myself being like this..But what I have is a gift for my God.I cant complain bout it but accept it.I've no choice to say anything as i dun have that right! I just cant chg anything but u just dun and wont understand! you din even try to understand me! sometimes i felt like im being so selfish..that i want people to accept what i say is right but somehow people just cant accept it.I shud reli look at myself again..Start to feel bored in my school life.Those people faces,insultions,the way they talk make me feel so upset and disappointed.They seemed like building their joy on people's pain,and yet they can laugh happily and make nothing! Felt tired of these school days..I feel like ending it up as soon as possible.