Still.

Blogging mode.


Got all of my coursework mark back and everything end up below my expectations. Do you guys know the feeling of expecting so high and everything you got back is just a lump of rubbish which is so much below what you expected? Like you climbed so high and you suddenly fell down, seriously it was so pain and i forgot how to describe.

I cried, lose temper, complaint, but... everything seemed so useless. What can i gain back after wasting all of these time? And seriously, it was also an opportunity to open my eyes and let me see, im not the only one who was standing on top. There are more and more people climbing upwards, and saw that i actually fell so hard. Never expect them to get so good results though, although i still don't think that way. Well, people have different thoughts, and the one who gave mark is not a robot. Same people but i guess there will be inconsistent also? I don't agree myself that i could be so bad, i kept thinking how if other people think about my performance? I will keep improve, I promise, because im not alone. My Lord will be the sterling of my life, to guide me in every path of my journey. I still remember the song that he gave me during the day i hid and bury myself in tears.



When the ocean rise and thunder roars
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
And i will be still know you are God.

I give back this song to all of you guys that read my post, who are down. Do listen to this song, which brought me back from everything which is unfair. God is faithful and everything is possible with Him. And, there are still a lot i need to learn, to be still in Him.