I ll be going back soon, the day after tomorrow. God knows how much i want to go home.. feel like degree life is terrible and i really need to recharge myself. And the best thing i can think off is mum's dishes, daddy's breakfast and time spending wif wugui after a month♥ It was so precious, and it eventually became my strength to move on. All the way of having my finals, i keep praying to God to give me strengh and i want to fall on You, to surrender everything onto Your mighty hands. The greatest thing of having You in my life is no matter what happens, i know that im not alone.
Past few days, when i was still preparing for my microeconomics paper, i felt like it was still so far for me to go home.. but it seemed like getting nearer, but im afraid of my business law and therefore i wish i could still have some time longer, but i wanna go home.. this kinda mixed feelings makes me feel kinda.... blurry.
I miss him so much. Want to have big hugs and to feel the warmth of his big tummies. I miss you lots baobei... miss u a lot. I want to take many pictures of us together, to keep all the memories so that i feel calm again wif our relationship. To feel that... u actually love me, a lot.
Im a person who lose secure easily, no matter in love, family, or friendship. I always felt insecure.. afraid that you guys would just abandon me like this. I treasure a lot, cherish so much of this kinda relationship we owned, and i really need to understand that.... 好朋友只是朋友，还是朋友，不能够占有。
I dont want to be old shirt neither new shirt, to be abandoned because it was outdated, and to be love because of the feeling of new and freshness. And..... i just dont like the feeling of being a tool. Or should i said that, if i choose to help, i shouldnt grumble?
Last paper of first sem degree. And i know that i still have a long way to go.
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