F.R.I.E.N.D

Today i got awoke by my mum.
She said:"Can u just dun b so naive??WAKE UP DEAR! This world is not as easy-going as u thought.Its not that u treat someone with true heart,u will get repay back.No ITS NOT! Maybe u really treat her as your friend but how she will think?U dunno...Dun determine someone's character with your first aspire.How u noe thr's a lie behind it??Think yourself daughter..."

So,i was thinking on my bed this morning.*actually i went to school but i went back home again cause u felt like vomit n head spinning in sudden.I FELT LIKE THE CAR WAS REVERSING!!!* AM I??!! AM I???!! ITS THAT THE REASON THAT I WAS FOOLED BY DEAD FISH???!!! I found that im getting more n more stupid.WHY?WHY?WHY?<--im asking myself.If I'd listen to my mum,talk less everything will be better,I think so the ending won't just end up wif a question mark-->?<--

Actually,guys u might not know something...That "my prob" din end like this way...There r still many ? in my head,my heart.I wanna noe,of course i do! But..u noe wat?While i was getting nearer to the answer,when i knew it,i really dun feel like knowing it anymore.I HATE IT!Actually its de feeling i hate :P Once,when i was form 2,i was so curious about a stupid question.ITS JUST A STUPID QUESTION MADE A CHANGE IN MY WORLD. People will just think "Ying Ying,its juz a small tiny lil question.Dun care it so much.Nothing."
N that,i'll think "Shut up..U dun know anything u cant feel me so juz save your saliva n keep quiet"
I know its rediculous to say that but..this is how i think to those who told me this.Seriously until now,i regretted to those who waste so much saliva for me to tell me "Ying Ying,u will regret wat u did.Y r u so silly??"<--HAHA I KNOW SHE WILL KNOW THAT IS .....hehehe~This girl is one of my best friend who told me not to,but...i had a conflict with her after that..Altho she said that she had forgiven me,but yet,i haven forgive myself.

YES.We need friends in our life.But friends.....i've only got a word to describe->speechless.The one who in my bff list,of course i believe them 100%,but those...who r using a smile or waving HI to me..I juz gt a feeling that they are realli fake.Dunno y,seriously.And what i predict its true.They will talk something or critic u behind.Maybe these person is surrounding around u which u said is "friend" or someone that u like.But for me,"urghh...normal is the best.No communication is even better."Feel weird sometimes.From young i can predict that someone is good,or fake.But there's only one,ONLY ONE,that i cant feel it.Which is the fakest big liar.She is really really fake.If there are some of people or "guest" here wanna learn how to be more fake until others wont notice,please visit-->STK,Form 2 dead fish :) Its not that i wan to critic her here but seriously,im juz saying facts. :)