WT...H??

ITS KOKO TODAY!!!
Eventually,i HATE today...i hate koko...A strange feeling that rush through me today.HATE THIS FEELING! But...no one knows...All of them thought tat "Ya..i know...that the prob btween three of u...i dun understand wats your feeling ..." yala..no one understand me...this kind of feeling...i hate the most...BETRAYED...CHEATED...mayb some of u guys r having this kinda feeling..but seriously i know,tat it hurts ALOT!!!

I'd juz wanna find someone who understand how i feel n comforts me...Seriously some of them reali comforts me thank you.But yet,i stil cnt get wan i want.I stil cant get wat i wanna noe.Mayb when i dun know,I will feel like wan to know.But when i know,i will feel like its better i dun know.I shouldn't know.Hurting myself again and again...But how pain my heart is,its not as pain as Jesus tat nailed on the cross for our sins.

4th April.
He should know what happened on this day.YEP.mayb i love this day if things not like today.But now,its juz like a date that i wan to fully delete from my life,its juz like a black spot had stickken on me,n it'll never gone.Altho i was reborn,i was purified,but in my mind,i did this things.In my mind,this truth will never change.And wat can i do is,i'll tell this truth to my future lover.I'LL TELL ＨIM WAT I DID. I felt ashame for myself.4th april 2009,i really wanna say forever goodbye to you,but i know,i need to face the realistic.ITS TRUE.